We have been made in God's image and God the Holy Spirit helps us to live, care and love like God the Son who is the living image of God the Father. God is community and likes to be and commune with us. He is always there, always cares and will forever love us. That is His promise. So why do I feel so lonely? Abandoned? Rejected?
In 2004 I was starting to feel lifted out of my depression and by the time I gave my life to Jesus in 2006, I was fully recovered from it. However, the psychosis is back and I have once again been prescribed medication to re-uptake the serotonin levels in my brain. Unfortunately, during the past couple years I have heard negative comments from fellow Christians about depression and anti-depressants and have been told numerous times that there is no need for medication as depression is a choice and only God can heal someone from it, but that person has to be willing to pray about it and to take it to God for healing. AARRGHHH!!! I now do not feel like I can share with others about my condition and want to go home to my friends and family who were there the first time around and understands me and is supportive.
God is community, and we his children are community too, but no matter how much alone time I spend with Him, I still feel like I need to be with those who know me and one of the worst thing about depression is, no matter how much I know how blessed I am, or how much time I spend with a true friend, I still feel lonely.
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